I was:

There

I did:

Sacrifice

I would:

Cry

Pray

Scream

Never again.

When you have a laugh like mine it’s easy to hide

That twisting, sinking, drowning gut feeling

The anxiety that wiggles and twists and pushes its way through

Making its move in the dark

When we are truly alone

The longest piece I’ve written so far, I TRIED to keep some kind of pattern and played on a twisted ending.

— Rach.

I won’t

sleep at all

tonight.

It’s going to be the first

of far

too many

nights.

I lay reminiscing;

heart aching,

head spinning.

Fuck you. I hate you.

I gave

everything –

I thought

you bought

a ring.

Fuck you. I loved you.

But,

thank you

for

teaching me

to be

strong enough.

I’m sorry. Come back.

I’m sorry. Too late.

I don’t think

I’ll

ever

understand

at all.

I’ve lost count

of

the nights.

—

Your mum called me today.

I know

she misses you

as much

as I do.

Fuck you. I loved you.

But

I’m sorry

it wasn’t enough

to save you.